Today I find myself in a better place.
I am currently incarcerated and sitting in a cell with a little over five years left in my sentence. I’ve been down since 2010! I find myself here sharing part of my testimony, this is my way of giving back to my community. And, you never know who might be reading, or who’s life I might change, or simply just be able to give hope again; even if it’s just one person. I just want to help others because all of us have been through the struggle at some point in our lives. We all need help, whether we want to admit it or not.
I just want to make clear that it is never too late to change, and that it doesn’t matter what you have done in your past! Just know, you do matter! That you’re not the only person out there feeling guilt, shame, hopeless, pain, and other emotions that we all go through on a daily.
One of my biggest fears was having fear of being judged and fear of change. And, fear of coming out of my comfort zone. I have my own character defects I deal with on a daily basis too. Trust me, I don’t guess I don’t got things figured out. But I’m learning. I take life one day at a time.
After so long, I finally wanted something different in my life. I wanted to change my life. I was tired of the same old tune. I had to start being open-minded, changing my way of thinking, but above all I had to learn to forgive myself. I had to start thinking positive on a daily basis, slowly-but-surely I started feeling my confidence coming back. I started to feel peace hope and joy.
For so long, I was my own enemy. I was feeding myself my own lies that I got into a dark place at one point in my life. I was in denial. Are used to mask my pain and emotions with drugs. I hit many lows in my life. For so long and expecting a different result but always ending up in the same situation with the same outcomes. Stuck in insanity.
For years I thought it was too late for me to change, that my time has come and gone. But that was not the case, it was just an excuse I kept telling myself. So this is why it is so important for me to share my testimony. Because I know there is a lot of others who are where are used to be and other peoples truths and experience helped me get out of my way and leave behind my self-destructive well I wish and hope that by me sharing, I can do that as well.
Just know, you can get your life back. And that your life matters!
Thank you for letting me share my story.
I wish you the best on your journey