Youth at Risk
Amends Project
So, it has been 21 years since the summer of 2000 and I’ve learned so much… As a criminal, a fugitive, and an inmate, all stemming from a false identity as a drug dealer with some real character defects that I was working in unbeknownst to me.
So the ego I had an Jesse James Hollywood was just a cover up/a mask for secondary rejects, low self-esteem, and issues like abandonment, reject, and non-entitlement all stemming from my childhood moving around a lot and looking up to drug dealers, bookies, attics, and alcoholics. The kids that gravitated toward me had no supervision, so they were kids involved in gangs and drugs. So during this time, I developed normalizing warped beliefs that I was the picture of all my other defects.
Through thousands of hours of self-help I’ve learned the source of my defects, where they began, and how they were reinforced through my childhood up to my life crime. Now, thank God, up to my turning point and my genuine change. You can change too if you’re getting in touch with yourself just figure out how you become the person you are. When I surrendered my life to the Lord in 2017 at level four Calipatria State Prison, I never imagined being the man I am today. I think about my victims every day and by focusing on education and honoring them, taking active steps to be a better man and be a law abiding citizen. I think and I am grateful that my prayers are being answered. The main thing is this… Forget about everything else… Live each day pleasing to God and keep doing good and don’t lose heart. Galatians 6:9 tells us in due time you will reap! Do it for your victims, your families, those who were there for you. Do it for yourself to be a better man/woman!
Thanks,
Jesse