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Jose Ortega T60444

Dear Jenny,

I know sorry cannot make up for not being there for you when you needed me the most. For missing those once in a lifetime moments of your life. Please know that I am sorry for not being there for you and for not being able to be there for those special moments with you.

I want you to know I’m not trying to justify or blame anyone for leaving you. I’m here to tell you the truth and let you know that I will never leave you again.

Through my rehabilitation here at Calipatria, I came to understand that my dysfunctional upbringing and the environment I lived in, had causative and contributing factors to my development that lead to a destructive lifestyle as a criminal gang member an addict. I have address these underlying issues, I take full responsibility for all my antisocial behavior, and I no longer practice or live by those criminal warped beliefs. These programs CGA, NA/AA, AVP have given me the tools to use in my daily affairs. It has been over 20 years and no walls or distance has come between us, we have a bond like no other.

Those statements you made at visiting, "I don’t want to see you in the hole again" and "remember when I used to do cartwheels on the visiting mats", that made me reflect and made me realize what kind of person and father I was (irresponsible, inconsiderate, and selfish). That was my turning point.

I’m sorry for everything I’ve put you through and that you had to go through by yourself. I want you to know that I am no longer that man today. I am a loving father, determined and earning my freedom to be there for you. That is my purpose and what gives me meaning to my life *you. You were three years old when I got incarcerated. Look at you now, 25 years old. You are a beautiful, brave, and smart young lady. There’s nothing that can come between us but ourselves.

I must thank you for not giving up on me, for believing in me, for your unconditional love. I love you.

C.G.A. lifestyle of addiction to criminality Step 9


To all the people that I victimized directly and indirectly by my self-centered, irresponsible, impulsive, inconsiderate, prideful, and greediness way of living in the past it only left a path of distraction,

I am deeply sorry for stealing your pigeons, your bikes, for vandalizing your property, by riding on it, for breaking your windows, for stealing your hubcaps, speakers, radios, cars, and I’m sorry for acting aggressively for fighting you, and selling drugs to you. I am sorry for hurting you emotionally, spiritually, mentally, and financially directly and indirectly to you and your loved ones. I am no longer living recklessly victimizing. Today I am a humble respectful and responsible hard-working man that obeys all the laws and rules, that thinks before he acts, that cares about others. I’m a man with a conscious, living with the purpose of making positive impacts anywhere and everywhere I go by sharing my truth, my experience of how powerful this lifestyle of addiction to criminality is, and it’s destructive force behind that has no compassion or empathy and preach not to live like I once did. Today I live by this motto “one less criminal, one less crime, one less victim.“

Once again I am truly sorry for the hards